Disgusted With Our Sin...

"[Therefore] I despise myself, and repent in dust and ashes"  (Job's repentance, Job 42:6, ESV).

"Depart from me O Lord, for I am a sinful man"  (Peter's sudden awakening).

C. S. Lewis' catch-22:  "We must see how bad we are to be good, and we don't know how bad we are till we've tried to be good."

Ovid:  "I see the better things and approve them, but I follow the worst."

"Why is it that I know what is right and do what is wrong?" Pierre in War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy

There comes a time to throw in the towel and declare spiritual bankruptcy and stop trying to save ourselves.  But before the good news a little bad news is in order:  We must get a realistic handle on sin and call a spade a spade; that entails not inventing pretty un-offensive names for it like weaknesses,  mistakes, or habits--we are all as guilty as sin and must come clean and own up to this. The verdict is in:  "Men love darkness rather than light because their deeds are evil" (cf. John 3:19).   God levels the playing field and judges all equally guilty of Adam's prototype sin as our legacy as well as individual fault as a result of our inherited old sin nature or original sin.

Sin is the roadblock that hinders fellowship and a relationship with God and creates a chasm or schism between us that only Christ can bridge.  We are not only guilty of breaking God's law (definition of sin), but His heart--the law breaks us too!   We shouldn't be afraid God will hurt us, but that we'll hurt Him.  We are in the predicament of not being able to clean up our act and get our house in order in preparing for salvation--we must come as we are for a changed life, not with a changed life. 

To define sin we must call it by its biblical terminology:  lawlessness, iniquity, lack of faith, missing the mark, rebellion, trespassing, lack of love, autonomy or independence, and transgression.  When Adam ate the proverbial apple he doubted, disbelieved, and disobeyed.  His prototype sin rejected God's authority, doubted His goodness, disputed His wisdom, spurned His grace, repudiated His justice, and contradicted His truthfulness according to one theologian--that about covers the bases!

Why are we so bad?  If evil were yellow, we'd be all yellow.  Actually, we are not as bad as we can be because of God's restraining grace and whenever you see someone worse than you, you should acknowledge that there, but for the grace of God, go you, in George Whitefield's words.  We justify ourselves and don't think our sin is so bad, but the other guy is guilty.  

We are not as bad as we can be, but as bad off as we can be--that means we are totally separated from God in our whole heart, will, and mind and need total redemption of our soul.  Our thoughts are evil, our imagination is depraved and runs wild, our emotions are sick, and our wills are stubborn and selfish:  "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?"  (Jer. 17:9, ESV).

Sin is not just our actions, but those we thought or intended, and our attitudes, both of commission and omission as the Anglican Book of Common Prayer addresses this:  "We have done those things we ought not to have done, and we have left undone those things we ought to have done." We all have feet of clay or weaknesses not readily apparent, but that God sees.  The sinner flatters himself too much to hate his own sin, according to Psalm 36:2.

The unbeliever is a sinner in the hands of an angry God, according to Jonathan Edwards preaching on Deut. 32:35 (ESV) saying:  "Vengeance is mine and recompense, for the time when their foot shall slip; for the day of their calamity is at hand, and their doom comes swiftly." We all have an inner sense of ought and the Law is written on our hearts according to Rom. 2:15, so that we are without excuse and stand accountable to God.  We must realize our state of sin to be saved:  It is not that we are good enough to be saved, but bad enough to need salvation.

The mandate or imperative from God is to repent and the goodness of God is meant to lead us to repentance according to Romans 2:4. God doesn't desire for any to perish, but for all to repent and gives man time and space to do it.  He commands men everywhere to repent (cf. Acts 17:30).   But the problem is that we cannot work ourselves up into repentance, it is the gift of God as he changes our hearts upon the hearing of the Word by grace.  Both Acts 5:31 and 11:18 attest to God's "granting" repentance to the Jews and Gentiles respectively.   

We don't need a Jewish Yom Kippur or Day of Atonement, but a change from the inside out which is not turning over a new leaf or making a New Year's resolution. We need progressive repentance that continues our entire life.  We need forgiveness from all that we've done, and deliverance from what we are.  This is because we are born sinners and we sin because we are sinners, we are not sinners because we sin. What God orders is true contrition, not just regret or feeling sorry--we have to be willing to turn our back on our sin and renounce it, counting the cost.

The good news is that Christ paid the penalty we deserve by dying in our stead and rising to the Father to prove His victory and show us hope eternal.   God has solved the sin question by the death, burial, and resurrection of Christ.  As a priest, he saves us and redeems us, as a prophet he dispels our ignorance, and as our king, he sets us free from sin's dominion.  

Why should we try to be good to please God when all we have to do is accept the free gift of salvation offered to all who put their faith in Christ?  It's not a matter of our good deeds outweighing our bad ones, but all of our righteousness counting as naught and coming to the Father with nothing to offer but ourselves and our sins in faith willing to do His will.    Soli Deo Gloria!